Whats up y'all? It's been a minute since I've wrote a personal post on here. But I'm back to let the old and new viewers know who is Aaron McMillan and what's "A.D.D. The Gentleman"
Basically I've came up with the title "A.D.D. The Gentleman" as a title for an instrumental RnB mix-tape I wanted to do. I was getting tired of hearing all the sex songs on the radio and I wanted make songs like I've grew up listening to about love. (Ex. Donny Hathaway, Al Green, Stevie Wonder, The Isley Brothers, Luther Vandross, etc.) Songs that sounded like they were classic old love songs but with the new style everybody likes now. The kindness, the gentleness and realness of good love songs rather than catchy sex songs hence the name. Now what I started doing musically was adding samples to my music. Honestly, it has made my sound better, I figure out songs on my keyboard and put my two cents in and make a new song. Now while I was working on my RnB shit I was also working rap instrumentals. I figure I could sell it to local rappers. I put the new rap instrumentals on my Facebook page, on this blog and my soundcloud. The most feedback I got was a few good comments, 10 or more plays and no collabs. I reached out to rappers I've known and got good feedback but nothing popped off. I'm also to blame for this as well due to my focus on other personal things and procrastination.
Moving forward, I stayed working on new music and experimenting with sound effects. As this was going on, an opportunity at my college open up. They was looking for people to cast for the musical "Hairspray". I didn't intent on joining at first because of how my schedule look and I wasn't a registered student anymore. But then something said to me, "hey look if you really want to sing why not take this and get some practice" and so I was in the play. All the things I learned at rehearsals and talking to people taught me to really appreciate everything around me even the things I don't notice. Long story short, it became one of the most raved show at BCC, 9 out of 10 shows were sold out and every night was standing ovation. Of course we had our mistakes, arguments and no shows but we put it all together for the fun.
Afterwards I started to write lyrics to my songs and recently practice singing more frequently. All the while I was doing this I was looking at the rap songs I just did recently. And then another light bulb went off in my head and said, "why don't you rap. If nobody is going to rap to your shit why don't you do it?" Now here's where I doubted this, I didn't want to be categorize as another Drake wanna be because a lot of rappers are singing on their records and even some singers are trying rapping a little bit. But then again nobody knows me "professionally in music" so why not come out the gate showing all of your skills. As far rapping I've played around with it a bit in the past but never really pursued it. But I said to myself if I going to rap, I'm going to rap about something positive and what I know. Now me thinking as a rapper and a singer, the title "A.D.D. The Gentleman" took on another meaning. The rap songs I have became about what it means to be a gentleman this day and age. With the environment, race, age and the social advance today everybody has now, it may not be that easy to remain humble and nice to people when everything around you is not that way. That's the story of my life, how to be a gentleman (socially and personally).
Ok, now here's comes the hard part to write about: my love life. To say the least my love life has been comical to all my friends and encounters but to me it has been a disaster. On my part, I've haven't acted at all to what a gentleman supposed to be. Short version, I been on my hoe shit. Long version, I've betrayed women trust, one night stand/friends with benefits and ended up alone again. Recently the girl that I liked moved into my complex and started talking to someone else. I've been talking to this girl for over a year and it just went down hill and all because of me. Bad part about it, she works where I do so it doesn't make it any better. I've had this problem before with my first gf and honestly as I look back on it, I've acted the same. My problems: being impatient, doubting myself personally, going through mood swings and my work schedule affecting my social life. I work at nights and only have Tuesday and Wednesday off, no weekends. It looks like I've been doing all wrong, lol I have and my friends haven't help that much. They all have gfs, going to school while I'm only one with my own apartment, car, full-time job and not enjoying myself. Going back to my depression state, I'm thinking "damn I'm making songs about being a gentleman but I'm not acting like it." That's when I said I need to change. I've made promises to change myself in the past but not fully committing to them. That's when I go back to God. When I read the Bible, research the end of days and understand the power of God I feel hopefully. I feel the gentleness, the good grace I love having.
Conclusion: "A.D.D. The Gentleman" has a deep meaning, to me and a lot of people around me. It's a journey I'm taking musically and personally. To find myself and keep at it, keep adding my gentleman. Musically, the project is going to be 30 songs, 15 rapping 15 singing and split into two sides. Now I know I got my work cut out for me because I never been into a studio before. But that's the beauty of it, the work. I have to try, I have to believe in myself and keep pushing. Of course I wanted it to have features from who I think is New Jersey finest artists. Ex. Brit Byrd, Shad Dolla, Phitted, Sleepy Keys, Choc Mike, Mike Zombie and/or whoever I think adds more to the project. Personally, I got a lot of work to do. Being more open-minded, be a little more social, work on patience, keep practicing singing, rapping, working overtime at my job for studio time and finally be the best man for me, my friends, my family and most importantly, God. Next question: when will I release it? Lol to tell you the truth I don't know but I do want this be done and ready within the next year or so. I'm giving myself another two/three years with this music. After that, I'm done. If I don't at least make a name for myself and put it out there, I'm going back to college and study nursing. I like helping people out with their health so why I made that decision. So that's all I'm up to, working. Working on my J.O.B., working on myself, working on music and working on A.D.D.ing the Gentleman. Peace y'all. One Love.
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