Intentions

Intentions
(From “The Producer’s Demo Tape Vol. 2”)
Aaron McMillan

Verse 1
The story of a young man, trapped in his own self-conscious plan
Goddamn his pride while scrubbing his hands, doing his work strive
In seconds he becomes what he always wanted to be, psychological mentally
Physically the weight varies on his head because he feels he’s a strong weak link
You think these words tell a fictional story, morally boring. The he is me, now listen closely
The best thing he can offer is the worst thing I could give, a fuck.
My intentions become short lived on bad timing so good luck, on trying to figure me out, he got the best of the doubt. Teach to preach but got no sleep, so the mind wonders what is there to believe

Chorus
I’m standing up for things I can barely take down, I know now. It ain’t always perfect.
Feeling for purpose, then get an after sense of what is really worth it?
I rap while I was writing this so I can work on the delivery so intentionally, my intentions don’t go missin’

Verse 2
He thinks about his life sitting down, looking up, for the love but I still feel the hate all around
Now I know we all done some bad things, not knowing the intentions of the good future it brings
As we sit and sink, the mind thinks, the eyes blink. We broke thinking how to break the bank
I think about what our tables bring. As good as we can eat; our shit is always going to stink
Brown, black, I can’t fathom that. The lies I see people doing saying its fact.
I’m black so I see people like me idolize our culture. From rappers to trappers, business, actors, entertainers, players, from teachers to losers and entrepreneurs.
What the difference of a cocaine distributor and 500 Fortune millionaire? Nothing but the air.
He’s planning market schemes; he did it from his dream. Mistresses and wives to the chick on the side. Planning on giving money to Rome while charity start at home
It’s all good, make money in life while you can afford it. Because when death comes, you don’t need it where you going

Chorus
I’m standing up for things I can barely take down, I know now. It ain’t always perfect
Feeling for purpose, then get an after sense of what it really worth it?
Seriously it’s funny to make deaf ears listen, but still nobody miss the intentions

Verse 3
I wasn’t looking for enemies, I wasn’t looking for haters. Somehow friends was their nature
Slave to free will, so bill my college tuition knowing my ambition I won’t learn shit. “So quit.” My reply “Na, I wanna finish to get my Associate in Business”
What is this? I know inside I’m a good nice guy but it’s always the bad side that reaches outside
My wife will be my joy and pride because so far the eleven girls I’ve had sex with it didn’t get that surprise
Can’t worry about my mileage now, still gotta keep going. Taking breaks just to think go at slow pace rather than yield roaming
So I’m going to stay the same even though I know I still keep changing. Falling to reach the top, don’t stop, let the beat rock. Going up in the air just to feel the drop.
Why not be, something that’s in me? Everybody says I think too deeply.
“Enjoy your life and just be happy”. I do that gladly even though it’s sad to see.
The story of the young man plan turns into reality. Plays hard but lose to beat
Now it comes complete. The story never ends, that’s when he wins. Until then, he’s going to have them intentions so it still begins with this line he said, it read
“I have intentions to save myself and the world but I be lying if I didn’t bring destruction. So still the war lies in, nobody wins yet I still fight until the end.”

Chorus
I’m standing up for things I can barely take down, I know now. It ain’t always perfect
Feeling for purpose, then get an after sense of what it really worth it?
I could have the best intentions but still they would be with bad decisions. The point is my intuition sometimes is missing but at least I still have my intentions.